ferri
Sunday, October 31, 2004
that is me.
yesh that is me.
me who?
me u idiot.
god im beginning to sound like jim carrey in
me myself and irene.
menaa: good luck wit ur a's too k girl. we can do it :D see ya soon!!!
ferri: you are the most beautiful girl in the world. yesh u are. and u one heck of a smart ass writing to urself. heheheheheh!
k..stress has devoured me.
aint nothing cool bout me no more.
doots.
creeepz..
something has gone maddies!
su: sorry didnt go tuitn hun..fell aslp like craps. sorry.. ;)
and to all u peepz out there: get me a vespa!!!
--insignificant lies--
11:39 pm
time to change.
Saturday, October 30, 2004
there is a time for change.
i know i always talk about that
but yet nothing comes out of it.
i dunno what to say really about that.
i need to change so i can be better for her.
so i will stop this insane jealousy.
this maddening feeling of distrust.
of unable to fully understand why anyone would even love me
to begin with..
times like this i look back and see myself.
and i think what has caused me to be like this?
to be so possesive..
but yet so withdrawn and detached.
i guess i have to blame it
on one relationship in my life.
a relationship that at once was beautiful
but at the same time destructive to who i was back then.
the pain i felt back then..
it was excruciating.
but i guess if u ask me
i would do it all over again.
cos without that poignant part in my life
i probably wont be where i am now.
in the most wonderful place on earth.
yeah..
:D
ok ciaoz..
bye...
--insignificant lies--
1:02 am
was up.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
hey wassup..
i thnk ppl are really going mad these days..yup..me not kidding yo..
so chem pract over.
bio pract over.
and guess what life is really a bitch.
all i got now is..
i dunno?
well i got one person.
and that's enough.
wish someone cld take my papers for me though..
i just wanna avoid everything.
--insignificant lies--
11:35 pm
fucked up.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
im just so fucked up with everything.
and no one is helping me.
screw shit.
screw screw screw.
and she is taking a really long time to
reply to the point i give up.
nvm..
she's busy outside anyways..
i guess i just got to depend
on myself again..
kinda like old times...
fuck all shit...
--insignificant lies--
8:31 pm
big BummeD beaUty...
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
yo wassup..
me heading off to oc library again.
that is my new haunt now.
its a pretty rad place.
nice tables.
free flow drinks..
haha..
now the only problem is
WHAT TO WEAR???!!!
i am so running out
of fashion solutions..
and my bag is cluttered with clothes and what not.
god..
so horrific.
and my floor..have u guys seen my floor?
faint sia i tell you my floor...
ok anyways moving on..
tmr is bio pract!!!!!
scream shouts!!!
the real pract i tell you!!!
the real thing!!!
yah not the fake thing!!!
the real thing!!!!
faints!
ok enuff of fainting..
im off now...gotta start
FINDING CLOTHES!
and to pack..
--insignificant lies--
9:15 am
stupid
Saturday, October 16, 2004
whatever.
im so pissed with everyone.
yeah whatever.
stupid.
depend on ppl to cheer u up..
also useless..
--insignificant lies--
9:32 pm
bored in sch
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
hey guys..
wassup..
i miss my babes..
so so much..
anyways...
im in sch now.
pon everything today.
cept pe.
later aftnn got maths mock test.
its really scary tt a levels is coming up.
hope u peeps
are doing ok.
this fri meetg my classmate at crescent..
cant wait ;)
yeah!!!
farewell assembly on fri too.
oh well..
actually no big deal in leaving aj
my heart is always with crescent.
always will be with crescent.
--insignificant lies--
11:23 am
cranky says; "hi!"
Friday, October 08, 2004
i wish i had a digicam.
then i can show u all cranky.
its a gift from su.
its a soft toy.
but seriously dunno what animal this is...
this was given to me on my birthday..
really nice..
cranky looks like a dinosaur.
a slim and slender one.
its blue.
with purple hands.
and purple toes and feet.
its mouth looks like a hippo's
sticks out..
and it has really cool hair..
its hair is like furry ribbons..u know the flat ribbons..
yeah..got three colours..purple, orange and yellow.
haha..describe pretty useless..
nvm..one day i get a pic k..
love cranky.
i thrown cranky all over the place
along with my fav bear sleepy.
sleepy is under my army bag..wonder if its suffocated..
hehehe..
but cranky is on my lap now..
cranky's hands are always outstretched..
its so cute..
love cranky..
THANKS SU!!!
so today watched
m'sian idol grandfinals.
so exciting!!!
its between jac and dina!!!
dina really has a power voice.
but today she wasnt on top form.
mayb its the jitters.
but she is one cool babe.
cos she is a biker rock chick.
and though her body is not perfect..she is still pretty and sweet :)
but jac...jac jac..jac..
what can i say...
cept..
JACLYN VICTOR ROCKS!!!!
she rocks my world.
and loads of m'sians out there.
really there is no one like her.
her voice is great.
her feel for the song is wonderful.
and she's really really cute..
very normal person..but yet a SUPER STAR!!!
i really hope jac wins..
so all u m'sians reading my blog..pls vote!!!
i want to call my uncle in Malacca to vote for me..
hehe..
i wish i cld vote..
singapore idol wannabes..u just dont make the cut..
seriously if these spore idol peepz
sang beside jac and even dina..they will really look like suckers..
even leandra..
sorry to say..as much as i love leandra..
spore idols just aint tt good.
really hope the next year..we can find even better peepz..
im sure there are more incredible singers than this out there..
so anyways..
jaclyn victor!!!
u got my vote..
jac & dina
ps.i love my babes more still... ;)
--insignificant lies--
11:05 pm
interesting day at sch.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
i shall not divulge the details of what happened.
but im sure some of u already know.
actually only farha n pali.
but hmm...
really interesting day.
freaking interesting..
i just realised that i havent been updating my misha lyrics.
and my links.
been so busy.
with...
hahhaa...
not my studies definitely..
anw i really miss my babes now.
miss miss miss..always miss..
HUGS!!!
later i'll give you one...
love myself.
and u guys too..
hehehe..
muacks..
--insignificant lies--
6:19 pm
little girls. big panties.
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
see i've never been small.
or little.
or petite.
i've never been referred to as any such word
similar to the ones above.
even as a foetus about to be received into this world..
i was in more words than one... HUGE!
i was a whopping 4.4kg.
however i shld acct that to the fact
that i was born two weeks late.
two weeks!
but who am i kidding..
we all know babies dont really grow much at that stage..
so my poor mother..
who till this day still blame me for this..
had to be cut open..
the procedure back then was shabby and completely lacking of skill.
that left my mother with a scar.
plaguing her life
as she nightly scratches her abdomen.
despite my sister being small and able to exit the natural way..
there was no other option but to repeat the dreadful procedure again.
lemme just say that in 3 years the procedure still remained the same.
the grueling procedure repeated.
all over again.
try that for size.
my poor mother.
so as you can see my readers..
it is my gigantic and unorthodox size that has caused my mother pain..
my birth was the beginning of years of body fats, futile exercising
and acceptance that my mother's body would never be the same fit
small and compact size that it was before.
not only did i get a disease
(which i believe to be low metabolism)
but i seemed to have passed it on to others.
so i am a cursed big sized girl for the rest of my life.
and i cannot run away from this fate.
we must make the most of what god has given us.
so what am i gonna do about this?
NOTHING.
despite all my yearning to be slim and petite and slender and what not..
i love my body the way it is.
in all its fat glory. ;)
ps. i was just going mad for a moment there.
i know i dont make sense.
but im having headache.
--insignificant lies--
11:13 pm
